My apprenticeship has begun!

Time for the big reveal. What is this new career that I am embarking on?

I have begun my apprenticeship to become a full time Professional Domme! I am very excited. 

There is a huge difference between BDSM experience within a one-to-one relationship vs actual formal career training.

I have had extensive experience within the BDSM world within my private life, but have never been mentored and never had my techniques graded.  Off hand, some of the things I have enjoyed participating in with my boyfriends are: (GIVING) Ass training (pegging, fingering, fisting), humiliation, sissification, bondage, small dick humiliation (my personal favorite), CBT, cropping, face sitting, face slapping, spanking, golden showers, making them give me forced oral and other forms of humiliation. There are many other things I have tried. But for now those are the main ones I have spent the most time on. I truly enjoy the psychological aspects of BDSM. Some people refer to it as the "Mind Fuck". I am extremely good at that and enjoy it greatly.

My confidence in my abilities to become an excellent professional Domme comes from the fact that I excel at the psychological needs of my subs. An apprentice Domme can learn invaluable techniques during her training, but it is very difficult to teach the psychology and also the improvisation to another student, if that student does not have dominance ingrained in her nature. 

Thinking back, all of my relationships, since I was 18 years old have been D/s relationships. This was even before I knew what D/s was. I have always maintained the Dominant role. It is ingrained in me, it is part of my personality and has been ingrained in me since childhood.

One of my earliest memories of childhood involve my dominant nature.  I was extremely tall for my age growing up. You would never guess that now because I eventually stopped growing at age 12 and stand now at 5'3". But as a child I was towering over my peers. Lucky for me, though my growth was stunted I did maintain my strength. I have always been exceptionally strong for my stature, and I remain so. It is shocking for a lot of men to witness my strength. 

The first male that I began dominating was my male cousin. I recall it began around the time I was 3 or 4 years old and he was a full year older than me.  There was tension between us due to the fact that he was beginning to come into his own and beginning to get a taste for his male identity.

He enjoyed wrestling with our female cousin. She was very weak, both physically and emotionally and was prone to crying spells. I watched him wrestling with her and pinning her down. She always lost at that game. Though it was not really a game for her because she was never a willing participant.

So one day, he approached me with the same confidence he approached my female cousin and began to wrestle with me. I promptly pinned him down and made him admit that he is a weak little girly-boy that had lost to a girl; a girl younger than him in fact.  Suffice it to say, the boy was enraged. It then became his mission to beat me.

It was so much fun for me. I would chase him around and not only wrestle with him but I would beat him up. Punching, slapping, sitting on him...I was in heaven.  I would not cease up on him until I made him cry.  The "game" as I called it would go on every time I was in a room with him. He began to fear me after a while haha.  My greatest pride came one day when our grandmother took me aside after one of my victory matches and she asked me to stop beating up my cousin. She said that if the both of us were boys it would be different. But it was not proper for a girl to beat up on boys. She said it was not good for his confidence to be beat up and made to cry by a girl!

What a boost to my childhood ego that was! I still continued fighting with him, but I was more secretive about it. Once I got him to cry I would let him go, but now I would give him a warning. If he told anyone, then the next time I would hit him even harder.

My fun officially ended a couple of months before my 6th birthday because my parents and I moved to Canada. 

From that time on I have maintained a D/s dynamic with the men I have interacted with.

Yesterday (April 28th) marked my first day of training. A blog post on the events of that day will follow. I'm still trying to formulate an idea on how to chronicle my training. There are two factors that I am very conscious of as far as censorship is concerned.

First and foremost, I have complete and utter respect for the privacy and anonymity of my clients. Though I have not yet taken a client professionally, I will in the near future. I grapple with the technicality of maintaining client confidentiality but also being able to share with my readers my journey as I learn.

My second consideration is my respect for the Dungeon that I am working in. I will adhere to all the house rules and I will never reveal house secrets.

How then will I share with you my experiences? By concentrating on my personal experiences (my thoughts and feeling) and telling you the basic subject matter of my training.  I can do this easily without giving away training secrets. 

Besides, how utterly boring would this blog be if it contained nothing but step-by-step lessons. If you are looking for that you will not find it here. Go on YouTube and you will find instruction videos on anything you wish to learn. There are so many resources online that will teach the technical aspects of BDSM.

My readers will receive much more valuable knowledge. An inside look at the inner workings and daily life of a Professional Domme.

Let the journey begin!