Slaying the male ego: An Update of my Summer Events

Greetings my submissives:
Many of you have been enquiring on my whereabouts during the summer months; specifically relating to my lack of blog posts during this time.

This past summer 2010 has been an extremely exciting and eventful time for me. It was a time filled with new adventures and new beginnings. With the approach of autumn comes a slower pace and with it time for self-reflection. It is in these moments of introspection that I turn to my blog for a creative outlet. As before, I will now have time to write new posts more frequently.

One of my adventures this summer involved something that I have rarely done ….. I very briefly dated another Dominant. Knowing very little about Dominant male mentality, I was quite taken by surprise at the vulgar and base nature of the untrained male ego.

This Dom Male was laughable in his attempts at male bravado. His behaviours and exaggerated posturing was comical. I have never seen anything like it. I have zero patience for this type of childish male behaviour and therefore I decided to abruptly end the courtship.

Let me first preface by saying that both of us entered the partnership with the mutual agreement that this would not be a D/s relationship. Instead we would be equals.

His male ego, when we were out in social situations was unable to exhibit any type of self-control. Anyone and everyone he would encounter would be greeted with hostility. The more that he tried to exert his male prowess the less respect I had for him. It made him seem weaker in my eyes. Some Dommes are truly capable of level-headed Domination of their subs. This man’s Domme behaviour, in my opinion, stems from a place of weakness and vulnerability. He enjoys putting others down in order to make himself feel strong, because I venture to guess that inside he feels afraid and insignificant.

He was not a real Domme at heart, but rather a scared little boy in a man’s body. The typical women that he dates are not well-trained subs. They were timid girls with low self-esteem.

Though the relationship was destined to fail from the onset, it was a beneficial experience for me from a learning perspective. I hunger for knowledge; especially when it relates to human behaviour and sexual psychology.

I have an abundance of respect for my well-trained and disciplined submissives. My submissives have a strong sense of self-worth, are intelligent, goal orientated and possess a great strength of character. Their characters are built by the training that they receive from me.

A soldier that is disciplined and harshly trained for battle is looked up to in our society for their ability to serve and follow commands. Soldiers are not insecure and they are not weak. In my opinion “real” male submissives. (Not a man experimenting with submission as a way to spice up his sex life) A real male submissive to me is exactly like a well-trained soldier. His life, his daily decisions…what he wears, when he eats, when he sleeps and all his activities of the day are governed by me. This is the ideal arrangement that I aspire to achieve.

I am practical and know that financial/career obligations during working hours take precedence. But I would enjoy to be in as close of a 24/7 relationship as I can.

I have been working on my list of duties for my future 24/7 sub. Perhaps I might even decide to later publish that list here in a future blog post. This list would be a morning till night account of the tasks my sub would perform for me….. from bathing me in the morning to changing my clothes and massaging my body with essential oils every night before bed and all the other daily activities in between.

After all, one can become quite tired and in need of a good massage after a long day of slaying the male ego. My imagination soars at all the exciting possibilities.

Until next time my devoted slaves.

~ Madison